*luc^KY^_ girl*

actually dunno wat to write de..feel like long time din blogging d..2mrw I’m going to sit for my final exam lo..1st paper,hehe..yesterday keng kai vf yuan,she accompany me at home coz no one at home..thinking bc when I’m in KB,many things happen..din study,keep on thinking wat m I suppose to do..how to walk my way?even till now,still blur..nvm,everything gonna be fine,mandy..haha!well well..I’l never be alone,feel so lucky actually got frens..10s u gals..wateva happen,u al wil still by my side..I wanna 10s to dar too..10s for loving me..I’l make up my mind 1day.. ",) as wat yuan said,I dun like to be dependent,but I’m actually dependent..haha..soli to let u all worried alwiz..but no choice,u all hv to coz u al love me so much!haha..:p n of course I love u gals too..if not I’ll not help u scold the taxi driver,so funny when think bc..if u al din push me away,n he still mumbling,I think I’ll fight vf him..haha..wat u think?no la..I’m not so fierce de..dunno how is the taxi driver?kena "chao yao yu" d?m I too kejam?this is wat I said..dun eva "step on my tail", I’l not let u go so easy..sound like so dangerous hor,but if u din believe,try n c lo..haha..

I said I’m better d in my latest blog,but the next day I admitted!Haha..after 4days in hosp,I’m now temporarily stay at my aunt hse,hv to go bc hosp follow up,now under medication.When looking back,I really don’t know how can I stand the pain for 1week then only decided to admit,although doc ask me to admit but I’m such a pure cow,still can stand for 1more day,after my mum,Kiong ask me to admit then only decide to admit.Ah Zee,Mayture,Xaioxaio,Yuan,Kim,Tzy Feng n Yen accompany me to hosp.So gam dong when saw 2cars come n fetch me..in hosp,really scared,coz nurse will help me put in urine bag so that I pass urine by using the bag.Heard my frens said it is damn pain when putting in the bag,as usual nurse gv me an injection,the help me wash the wound.Wah,damn pain when the nurse help me wash it.I try to stand the pain,but it’s really pain!I SHOUT,hAND KEEP ON FINDING THINGS TO GRAP,lastly I pain till CRY!The most painful I ever had,although I hv been stand the pain for one week la..gila punya orang..after wash the wound,the other nurse help me to put in the tube,haha..I din feel pain d,"ma" d..everyday nurse will help me wash 3times per day,oh my god!When I kno I hv to suffer 3 times each day,really scared!My parents come from KT n KB 2nd day to look after me.Kesian my frens,hv to rush here n there to take care of me,n yuan overnite in hosp to accompany the 1st nite.Slowly,many ppl around me get to kno I get admitted,they come to hosp..I’m still ok if din wash the wouind but after wash the wound I hv no energy d coz waste so much energy to shout,even cry n "fa dou",this is wat happen although I taken pain killer.Still remember "AV" frens heard my shout when they visited me.So soli to scared them..I hv to put aside my studies to rest in hosp,no choice..actually I’m worried,coz I hv to pass up the proposal of my final year project n there are so many assignments hv to do.My best frens,wei n se rush to hosp too when they get to kno from Phing.Actually v hv make appointment so v can meet on Sat for shopping n gathering between three of us,but at last v meet up in hosp,is oso a kind of gathering I think..haha..My aunts,uncs,cousins all went to visit me.,tell u all truthly,although I’m suffering in hosp,hv mild phobia towards nurses,but I do feel lucky to hv loves n cares from my dearest parents n families,frens..although the hosp is so far from their hse,but still take some times to visit me..I can feel the pain from my mum when she saw me cry when wanna sit bath in the dark purple color medicine,she is beside me to accompany me when the nurse apply wash n apply medicine for me.She hugs me,let me grap her although I try not to.. This is so called "Mother"..I love u,mum..my hp non stop ringing,from my grandma,aunts,unc,frens..A word.."lucky gal"..n 10s to all my frens!Really 10s!Dun wori,as wat u all said,u all miss the happy me,actually me too..I’ll become better n better..every1 is waiting for me to go shop!Haha..

I get sick,cant go camp..it doesnt matter but it’s so suffering..non-stop fewer,sakit sendi…feel like wanna pluck out my bone n hit..so bad!suffer for 2 days,then decided to change Doctor..so the next day Tzy Feng ponteng n send me to another doc.After test urine,blood pressure..doc said my urine bladder get infection!That’s y I feel so pain when I "wee wee"..it’s so terrible,u kno..I hv to bite my shirt,I use my hand to close my eyes,n get ready then only "wee wee"..so pain..until everytime when I feel wanna go toilet also scared..at nite,can’t z le..turn here n there..doc said it will takes longer time to recover,omg!I hv to suffer for sometime..but within this few days,wat I get is the caring from my frens..they accompany me,take care of me,send me to doc,sms me,phone me..aunt who rent her room for me oso very caring,she even call me when I bc to ayi’s hse..of course this makes my family worried,so soli..frens,I’m now better d..is just still feel very pain when "wee wee",but I’ll not bcoz of pain the dun wan drin water..I drink a lots!I’ll never give up!I wanna go uni!

new year?older 1 year..:) I should be happy bcoz alwiz thinking to have own salary,can buy own car,hse,shirts..shopping by using own money..hope to be independent..ya,now older 1 year tat’s mean I’m going to achieve my dreams sooner n sooner..Dad,mum,bro,grandma..feel so unhappy 1na leave home again,feel so warm when I’m at home,n alwiz protected by u all..but,no choice,have to leave too..:) Think bc many memories..sweet n sour..vf frens,x lovers…frens reali come n go,who treats u good,who treats u bad..u kno it very well is just sometimes u dun wan to accept the reality thus coz dissappointment..sad..everything is changed especially when u n ur frens or even best frens are in different sch,college or uni..but when u all meet up 1 day,u will still feel the "love",still can chat the same topic,laugh,cry 2geda,u shld appreciate it..it’s hard to find such frens..well,wei,san,phing..10s!I’m glad vf u all!Love u all so much!Reali happy when meet up vf u all..I think u all too will never forget those memories that belong to us..sometimes when I think bc some memories when I was in primary sch..I miss my sis,I alwiz went to her hse almost every afternoon after sch..she did feel v not as close as last time,but wateva v still keep in touch but dun hv chance to meet..wateva,I promise,I’ll never forget u,u r still my sis since standard 3 till now n 4eva..I lost my best fren who I kno her since v r in kindergarden bcoz both of us r so stubborn,v quarrel when v r in form5,n v din contact each other till now.Bt,I did meet her when her grandpa passed away,that time was the last time I met her,it was so long ago..actuali I miss her so much,I miss the time when v r so close..when think bc form 5,I think of my gang "orbit" of coz will think bc our head of orbit..I will never forget how sad was I when get to kno he is going to leave us..sometimes when think bc,I wil still feel like wanna cry..hope he is fine in other world,take care..my grandma keep on worrying how I live in KL alone,but I told her I hv a gang of best frens here..KBgeng,"MCA" gang…so dun wori..reali lucky to have u all here..10s guys!I hv lost my dog at 30dec2006,feel so sad..till now v din even kno wat happen to him..Kiong,u r 4hrs far away fr me..:( 2days more is ur b.day,bt so soli cant go to celebrate vf u,this sem my timetable is reali pack..haih..hope u enjoy ur 23 years old ya!10s for ur luv,luv u 2!Take care o~Plan for my future,wat I wanna be,how I wan my life b..all is oledi in my mind..hehe!Gd luck ya,yoong!I’ll never a loser until I stop trying!I love this word!Happy go lucky~

2day wake up early,630am coz 9am exam.Nothing much can read for this paper,is English Language..after exam,got wtf meeting then went to sing k vf my MCA ji mui..v choose to go low yat,coz v wil park car at KLs then take monorail there so that when v can avoid from traffic jam when wanna come bc PJ.Been long time din sing d lo,really miss the time when v sing,like crazy ppl..especially when sing those shout shout song,n v can like having disco in our room..haha..I’ll also read the lyric,n sometime will think bc my past time..bout my love stories,old frens…especially "nu ren xin shi" is like my luv vf Kiong,v faced so many problems 2geda,how others think bout me when v r having trouble,keep on talking bad bout me..I will not forget the word,"See how stupid is she,ppl dun wan her d,but she stil luv him.."R u clear enuf wat hd happened btw me n him?U kno everything bout two of us?I hope I can prove to them,I’m not stupid to choose to be 2geda vf Kiong at last.But I can tell them,for now,I’m so happy n din ever regret to make tat decision.I kno who m I?I kno I hv bad temper,although I hv try my very best to control it,n I think I hv control it sometimes.But,sometimes I will still out of control,esp when in hot day,rushing hour..like 2day I think I hv speak louder to one of my ji mui who drive her bf’s car fr uni to KLs,n bc..I cant c ppl drive like this n will feel like very anxious n worried..soli soli ya..luckily I oso control every words that going to say..this is the thing I can do when I kno I’m going to "explode"..sometimes I hope I can be a gal vf good temper or can say no temper at all.Guys,it’s so hard to becum like this la..n lastly,I’m still who I m.I think sometimes got temper is good oso,will not get bully easily..Who is Hwei Yoong?I think my old frens kno wel bout me..wateva,I’m still Hwei Yoong!A gal who born in year of ox,even horoscope oso is in Taurus!Double stubborn as wat my grandma said..hehe..but I think I hv a bit different d,I’m a grown up Hwei Yoong.I love myself,my family members,darling,n frens very very muc..I really din like the feeling,as how I felt in 8 Aug nite..I cant forget the feeling,sometimes will still hv the feeling of crying when I think bc..I really appreciate wat I hv now.10s for everything,everyone..

Meet u again fren..I was shocking at first,I keep on asking myself,m I dreaming?I kno u r not in this world d,but I still meet u,n u told me u r bc..u bc on sat..been long time din meet u d,meet u again now..u looked so good,happy live there.The questions "M I dreaming?""Izzit u?or the guy I met is ur bro?" keep on spinning my mind..this time v met not as long as v met last few times,v just met accidentally,n as last time v were like make appointment b4 n u bring me here n there..Actually I feel happy to meet u in dream,is a only way v can keep in touch,is the only way I get to kno how r u recently ..but when I kno that usually ppl in another world will not talk to us,n v cant meet that often,it’s so scary.I hv been told to "cut down"our friendship,u walk ur way n I walk my way..I was so sad at first,I’m scared to wait till that day,I really appreciate our friendship,u know it rite?But I hv to,is for my own good,I kno..it’s hard to let u go,but the fact is,u hv gone!I hv to accept it..Plz forgive me,I cant visit u when I’m bc to KB,V hv to stop meeting..This is an order,v hv no choice,fren..v r in different world now..Actually if I dunno the rules,I was so happy to meet u,I think u 2 rite?U r new comer for that world,mayb u dunno the rules too..I think u wont bcum like wat others said..I’m so glad to hv u as fren b4,such a good guy!Even u r not here,u r alwiz there for me when I’m not happy..thanks for the trip u brought me to that day,n comfort me when I’m not happy that time..mayb I dream of u last nite bcoz I was angry about that customer last nite,u try to talk to me,but time is limited,v cant chat much..U gv me a feeling like,u r  alwiz bside me,to protect me..10s..dun wori,I will not forget I hv u as fren b4,u r alwiz my fren 4eva..plz remember v must follow the rules..k?Dun harm me k?Just protect me n dun eva bring me here n there k?U kno wat I mean,fren..is oledi 110 days u been in that world,should be ok vf that environment d rite?U looked so good last nite..anyway,take care..

The guy who love you, can’t tell you the reason why he love you. he only knew that, in his eyes, you are the only one.

The guy who love you, actually always make you mad, but he do never know what stupid thing did he done, as everything he done, is for your own good.

The guy who love you, seldom praise you, but in his heart, you are the best, only he know it.

The guy who love you, will scold or complaint if you din’t reply his message but others, because he cares.

The guy who love you , Only drop his tears in front of you, when you try to wipe his tears, you are touching his heart , the heart which beat for you.

The guy who love you, always tell you not to think too much, because they already plan it for you, he want to give u the best life in the future, he want to give you a surprise, believe him that he can do it.

The guy who love you, maybe can’t remember special occasion like some kind of anniversary, but , he do know that, every second he live, he’s loving you, no matter what day is today

The guy who love you, will listen quietly to you, when you are mad, and when you finished, he will said, you still got class tomorrow, sleep earlier with smile.

The guy who love you , if he can’t always see you, he will try to make himself busy, for not to have any time to remember you, because he knew, if he did, he will keep on missing you until he could do nothing.

The guy who love you, said sweet words to u, and you know his kisses transfer his all passion to you.

I saw this in one of my fren’s sis acc.Now only I kno why my dar alwiz make me mad..alwiz ask me not to worry bout him,scold me especially when I din pick up his phone call or msg..N now I dunno where he is..can’t get thro his phone for 24 hrs d..OMG!As wat rere ask me.."don’t u worry?"..I’m worried!I dunno wat happen,just kno tat he went to Dungun yesterday,n no news then..I guess should be nth happen,but..you know..nothing I can do..N if sth happen, hospital will call my phone,rite?Haaha..well well..hope to hear from u soon,dar..luv u..

那温暖　你的温度　安静的意味着那　
短暂幸福
爱就算满足　却是个未知数
如果有天长地久　有多遥远　让我看见
越是幸福越害怕　怕它会结束　
越拥抱　却越是孤独
没人了解的寂寞　我自己照顾
不想让你发现我　凌乱的脚步　
我努力　跟上你的速度
不再独自感受　那幸福背后藏的辛苦
那么快　你的甜苦　如何让我的花色
爱让人喜悦　就算会有变数
只要能拥有一秒　有多辛苦　我愿付出
越是幸福越害怕　怕它会结束　
越拥抱　却越是孤独
没人了解的寂寞　我自己照顾
不想让你发现我　凌乱的脚步　
我努力　跟上你的速度
不再独自感受　那幸福背后藏的辛苦

Jz bc from KB,last nite I drop my tears when I was in the train.I miss my family!I was so happy and hang fok when in KB.Protected by parents,grandma,brother…I "work" in the temple when bc there,help to sell joss stick,help ppl write when they wanna "kui un",help to show ppl how to pray..especially when bring elders,"papah" them..I feel so happy every time after papah them.N when they say 10s or smile at me,I really feel so hang fok!Everytime during this season,my family members al wil bc to pray,some bc for few days,but is more than enuf.Therefore,I will bc too to meet them.Today,I suppose to reach KLsentral aroud 738am as written in the train tic,but no..I was still in the train at 1130am..so I miss my midterm exam,but lecturer let me take but join other tutorial gp,last chance,1230noon.10s my dearest jimui,help me to ask permission from my tutor.I reach AsiaJaya LRT sta ard 1150am,my ji mui n Ah Z go n fetch me there,although 1200noon got lecture.So gam tong!N when reach,I kno Ah yuan must be very worried,then I ask Kim how was she act..ya, as wat I think,she worried till scared to call or even sms me…haha!N every1 is worried!As wat wai said,"so nice ar u,just came bc from Kb,then every1 is worried bout u.Busy to help u fond the way to help u in exam.."Bcoz I bc to KB for 2weeks,then I miss to learn SPSS,my jimui help me to transfer the data to me,but failed.They tried to teach me thro fon,tried to get answer to help me in exam..scared I hungry,buy my fav fruit to me before they enter claz..10s,my dear "gang"!I was so so so lucky,n feel so warm..without frens,I think I will not be so happy in this new environment..I hv family,Orbit members,WEI n SAN,KB GENG,old frens fr KB,my "MCA" jimui…my world is full of luv n support!10s god!10s…n of course will not forget my dar,KIONG..hehe..10s for ur change n luv..so happy that v will discuss our problem properly n get it solve then..10s god!

As wat I write in the latest blog,I went to Penang but cancel Melaka trip coz the mirrow of wai’s car broke when v r on the way to Melaka.V need to stop by in Taiping to repair it n it cost us RM350.V decided to go to Ipoh which is near by taiping,n Nget is there,so v can overnite at his hse..nvm la,next time only go lo..no choice..now new sem begin,hope everything gonna be fine soon..last nite,I dream of u..I ask u many things..this is the second time I met u in my dream..the first word I ask u is..how r u there?haha..I go to have a look in ur friendster acc,I kno I miss u lots..feel like got many things wanna share vf u,wanna play vf u like u acc me in my dreams..so happy..izzit like wat others said,when lost it only kno to appreciate..I met Han Son in Penang last week,he acc me n my frens to Batu Ferringgi n chat a while..v talk about u..every1 miss u lots..U kno it rite?As wat u said last nite,u kno every1 cry like hell when u leave us..well,no choice,u hv to leave.Last nite,I didnt scold u as wat v met in first dream I met u.Mayb bcoz I started kno how to appreciate the time when v meet.10s for coming into my dream n I kno some of them waiting for u to go into their dream,they miss u..I keep on looking bc the message u sent to me in friendster.I’m regret,y I delete it until nowleft 1 message only,the only message is from u..I kno is no use to be regret n sad now,I kno it..but I really miss u,miss u lotz…Hope to meet u again,I do appreciate the time vf u..oh ya,I will bc to KB next week,but I cant go to visit u coz I need to go temple (KIU ONG),u understand 1..will visit u next time k?U looked no different last nite,should be ok at new environment rite?:) miss u..really miss u lotz..